Thursday, September 29, 2005

Maybe this winter

Wow, today was a scary day.  I haven't been able to shake this anxiety all day.  Which surprises me.  I thought I was Miss Calm Cool and Collected.

John and I called his oncologist at the Transplant Center today.  He needed to ask whether or not he could stay on a certain medication, or if it would be contraindicated with the bone marrow transplant he is going to have in the future.  Well, Dr. Claxton told him he would have to get off the medication.  And then John spoke to him about some more things.  He told him that he had been catching things lately (bronchitis, etc.).  Dr. Claxton told him that he wanted him to do another bone marrow biopsy soon (ouch, they core you for that one!) to see what stage the MDS was at.  John also asked him if he should get a flu shot, and Dr. Claxton said it would probably be pointless to get one this winter, as he wouldn't need it, as he might very well be getting the bone marrow transplant this winter!

I got on the phone, not knowing what they had discussed, and told Dr. Claxton how many hours John had been sleeping.  He said this concerned him deeply, and with this information, and based on what John had told him, and the fact that there may be an available donor, he was thinking about doing the bone marrow transplant this winter.

To be honest with you I am stupified.  I knew it would be soon, but not this soon.  October is in two days.  That means winter is in two months.  So technically we could be talking two to five months here.  This is so shocking to me.  I thought I would be so calm when it came, but when it is staring you in the face it is different.   

Well, that is about it.  I guess I won't jump to conclusions.  I will know more on Oct 20th.

Take care everyone.  Love, Krissy :)  

 

 

23 comments:

  1. Wow, Krissy!  I am praying every day.  Give yourselves a hug for me.  Love, Penny

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  2. Praise the lord!! Praying for you both:)

    Deb

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  3. My, Its all in Gods hands and his timing krissy. Things will be ok

    Hugs
    angelrose

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  4. I do so hope John will get his transplant and all will be well for you both. I'll be praying for you and John. with love, Jeannette.xx.

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  5. ((((Krissy and John)))))  I'm waiting and praying until I hear from you on October 20th! I pray for good news!
    Hugs,
    xoxo
    Heather

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  6. Hi Krissy,

    I guess it was a shock to hear it could be soon...but you did good.  John has a strong wife...and one who has done her homework and knows how to deal with anything thrown at her...Oct 20 is right around the corner...the winter is on our doorstep...stay strong, as I know you are...lots of hugs and prayers...from one friend to another...give John our love too from Virginia!  
    Joyce

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  7. {{{{{{{Krissy and John}}}}}}}}}}}
    Praying for God's speed.  Praying for calmess for you and John.  Hugs, LuAnne

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  8. Big hugs to you and John Krissy. Hand all your anxieties to God, that is all you can do.  The quicker John has it done the better.

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  9. Krissy; that is wonderful news, but it is also scary because it opens up so many doors of new things to learn, to be concerned about, to wonder about. No one you felt anxious yesterday; I hope your anxiety is a bit better today. It seems like John has a doctor who is looking out for John's health and trying to get him better; that is great news!

    Praying all goes well between now and October 20th.

    Psalm 94:19: When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.

    Give it to the Lord, He is right there with you and John.

    betty

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  10. News like this is always a shock at first, love.  It is hard to process.  I am always here for you, but you know that...

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  11. This is scary and wonderful and an awful lot to process at once.  Let it all sink in and then sort it out bit by bit. Please let us know how all of this pans out.  

    Hugs to you and John

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  12. Wow, this is fast, but isn't it also good news that they have a donor?  I hope you enjoy an anxiety-free day filled with sunshine and beauty.
    Judith

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  13. I think that when the time comes Krissy, you will be calm.  You will be so busy caring for John that you won`t give yourself time to worry.  You`ll be just fine! :-)

    (((((hugs)))))

    Sandra xxxx

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  14. {{{ Krissy }}} I figured the transplant would be before the holidays...it usually is the sooner the better with these things.  Hang in there...prayers coming for you and John as always.

    be well,
    Dawn

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  15. Krissy. . oh I know how you are feeling! We went to see the oncologist on the Monday and he said he would do a twelve hour op. . .on the Wednesday same week.I thought I was  paralysed  with the shock!Its amazing how we get through these things but we do.I kept telling myself have faith not fear.You know John needs this transplant so the sooner the better.You will have lots of support from your family and friends and your journal friends too!

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  16. I keep you and John in my Prayers.

    Carolyn
    http://journals.aol.com/shelt28/MyLife

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  17. Thinking of you both m'dear.
    What a shock that must have been, when you had expected things to take alot longer.  I seem to remember that you were told a while ago that it could be a year before John got his transplant.  
    Sara   x

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  18. This must be so difficult.  He is so lucky to have you by his side for all of this...JAE

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  19. everything be alright just try not to worry too much God always helps you when you need it.

    -Kristina

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  20. Krisy wow I reallly don't know what to say.....Kasey

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  21. ((( Big hugs ))) for John sent Krissy to help with the ouch! on another test.  He's a lot of angels thinking of him and am very glad the posty has been good to him, anything that can keep his spirits high is good.  One hug for u too ((( ))).  Take care of u both. Rache xx

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  22. This is a good thing!!
    Hugs to you both~~~
    Linda :)

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  23. Krissy...I am sooooooooo sorry I am so late in seeing this...but I am here now...my alerts did not work for many.  I am praying all goes okay with the second test...and you and John are both in my prayers...tell John we all are keeping those angels of his on top of the situation...they will make sure all goes well.  You know if you need anything...I am here for you AND JOHN too...for sure...love you both so much..hugs and keep us posted.  Sorry again, I was so late in seeing your post.  

    Joyce

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