Wednesday, September 7, 2005

Suspecting something was wrong

This journal is for what is going on currently, today, in my and John's life.  And my feelings.  But for a couple of entries I wanted to share with you some recent events that led up to where we are now, just so everyone will have a little background.  Bear with me as I do so.  It is part of the story. 

John was diagnosed with MDS on June 16, 2005.  We will never forget those dreaded words as they came out of the oncologist's mouth.  "You have Myelodysplasia."  But let me back up for a minute.  I am leaving part of the story out.

About a year before the diagnosis of MDS, John was getting a routine blood test.  He was constantly getting these tests as part of follow up for the Non Hodgkin's Lymphoma he used to have.  The test showed anemia.  John wasn't surprised.  He had felt so tired and run down for so long.  As the months wore on, the oncologist did more tests, and told him that he still had anemia.

Meanwhile, in December of 2004, John proposed to me.  We were on cloud nine.  With the help of my parents, we were planning a wonderful wedding.  We were ecstatic at the thought of spending the rest of our lives together.  Our future was so bright.

Then a week before the wedding John had an appointment with his oncologist.  He came home and told me what the oncologist said.  "He thinks my cancer is back."  I thought I had been whacked upside the head with a two by four.  I walked around the week before my wedding in a stupor, trying to pretend nothing was wrong, keeping a straight face, because I didn't want my family to find out about it and worry.  I wanted to have a joyful wedding and then tell them.  It was a very hard thing to do.

The oncologist wanted John to have a battery of tests immediately before the wedding even started, and John told him "no", that he was going to wait until after the honeymoon.  We had the most beautiful wedding on the face of the earth, and a fantastic honeymoon, and then returned home to reality.

Okay, this entry has gotten long enough for today.  I will finish telling you how John got diagnosed with MDS in the next entry.       

14 comments:

  1. Wow you have been through alot. Stay Strong:)

    Deb

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  2. I was just telling John2 how beautiful your wedding was last night :-)..how it was the happiest and most joyful day of my life after the birth of my children.  Thanks for reminding me of that joyful day again!! xox

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  3. Background information is good.  I'm an information junkie, so bring on as much as you want.
    Best,
    Judith
    http://journals.aol.com/jtuwliens/MirrorMirrorontheWall

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  4. I'm so glad that you and John had the joyous Wedding that you both deserved.  It must have been so hard, not telling anyone what was happening though.
    ((((( Krissy and John )))))
    Sara   x

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  5. ((((((((Krissy & John))))))))))))  You two are so strong.
    Hugs,
    xoxo
    Heather

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  6. Krissy keep strong - we are all with you....Ally

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  7. I can only say how much I admire you and also John for all you are going through...I remember the wedding photos...you were such a beautiful bride and John so handsome!
    Hugs and all my prayers to you both...
    Stay strong!!!!
    Joyce

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  8. All I can say is you are blessed too have found each other,TRUE LOVE..thick or thin bettr or worse...Prayers....Kasey

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  9. It seems to me that you and John are perfect for eachother.  What a beautiful marriage you are blessed with.

    Terra

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  10. I am so happy that you had a wonderful wedding and fantastic honeymoon.   It's the good things that give us a quality life.    mark

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  11. I am glad you have this journal...JAE

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  12. You have my full admiration for the way you are dealing with this.Prayers are ongoing for you both.

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  13. Hello my friend. Give my love to John. love 7 hugs for you.
    Sylvia xx

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  14. Hello my friend. Give my love to John; love & hugs for you.
    Sylvia xx

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