Sorry to start out making these entries downers all the time. I have been meaning to write an entry for awhile now to tell you all how positive John and I now are. How different our attitudes are. How we can really handle things. And all of that is true!
But is it kind of hard right now also. John was admitted to the hospital yesterday. I won't go into the whole thing, but he had a reaction to one of the drugs he was taking. He needs it in order to have a successful transplant. Now the doctors are trying to find a med that will replace the one that he was on. It has to be a certain kind that is not contraindicated with his upcoming BMT. If one is not found in time for January, his BMT will have to be postponed. I am probably panicking a little here, jumping the gun, but prayers would make me very happy. Thank you so much.
So how am I doing? Sad. Sad that he was transferred to a hospital that is too far away for me to even visit. Concerned that he may not get better in time. On the other hand, I am not going to jump to conclusions. I think I am holding out pretty steady. I am pretty proud of myself for functioning quite well. I am doing what I have to do. I get up everyday and function, take care of myself, eat right, exercise. I even feed the cat, lol. I am getting by. I am doing Christmas cards. And I am about to burst into tears, lol. Such is life. Okay, that is enough of the dramatics. I have faith in the Lord and I have faith in John. John is a fighter. And John and I are positive. So we will be just fine. :)